Well about 6 months ago my uncle had gotten bad enough that Mom and I talked to my aunt about moving into an assisted living facility. We wanted her to put my uncle in an altzheimers unit where he could get the help he needed and my aunt wasn't so overwhelmed. She decided she wanted to move into this one facility and went to set things up with them. Well when she came back she told us that instead of putting Johnny into the altzheimers unit and getting herself an apartment she had bought a duplex for both of them in the independent living area!!! WHAT?
Well now 6 months later he passed out and had to be put into the hospital. Then the doctor wouldn't release him back to live at home. She HAD to put him in a facility. Well long story short....I know too late LOL.......there's been a bunch of hoopla and she can't put him in the place they moved to and she's not listening to anyone and making a bunch of bad decisions. Now on her way to look at another facility that's cheaper, with another aunt and uncle to help, they stopped by our house to visit.
It had taken me almost the whole 6 months to calm down again, get out of that chaotic mindset that she inspires, and get back to being me. And now after the visit, which was only a couple of hours, I'm fighting letting her pull me back into her chaos. So I drew a couple of cards.
Card #1 is What should I do right now to keep myself away from being pulled back into a chaotic mindset? I got the 5 of Wands.
That at first seemed almost like something I should NOT do, but when I look at the keywords it says "Inspired Chaos". And these people in the card are not truely fighting they are having fun. So maybe I ought to take the chaos that my aunt brings to me and use it as a fun challenge to practice keeping more inner control. I mean I don't have to let her drag me down to her level. I know that in my head, but it is much easier to say than do! If I look in the book it says "This card is meant to describe bringing order out of chaos with integrity and honor." And that is very much what I should be doing right now!!
Card #2 is What should I NOT do right now? I got Summer Warrior, another Wand. (Knight of Wands)
This Summer Warrior goes charging into almost anything. He's all energy and enthusiasum. Keyword "Enthusiastic". So I need to stay centered. Not allow myself to get all caught up in the chaos and get confused, which would lead to me not making informed decisions or reacting in ways I wouldn't normally if I allowed myself to think it through.
It's interesting that both cards were wands. And really I can't do....well I won't do....anything other than give my emotional support. My Mom and I both wore ourselves out completely by living with them for 3 years. I still love my aunt immensely, but she's very self absorbed and pretty selfish. So now that other family members have come in to help I am just staying out of it. But even having the "what I should do" card be a wand...an action card.....I'm reacting to this by saying "Not on your life!" I am NOT allowing myself to get involved like that again. Although by looking at both of these cards in mental and emotional ways (even though they're action cards) they make alot of sense. Not allow her to get me caught up in her enthusiastic chaos and dragged in with her, but let myself learn from this situation - staying calm, centered, and confident.